Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Isi isi was written at 10:53 PM
I am here.. In my room.. Wearing pyjamas.. Gulping jasmine green tea..
HAHA.
Anyways, today is my 'Stress By My Mother' Day. She really pushed my buttons today. Macam, she ordered me around for example cari her room keys cause she lost it. -__-' Lapas atu sikit sikit marah and say I shouldn't act like so and so since I'm nearly 20. -__-' Sasakku. Then paling extreme was she asked me to climb the fireman's ladder to get into her room pasal ia malu if the firemen masuk ke biliknya. -__-' Bangganglah aku..I mean, don't I have huge brothers who people practically think are older, who could climb better? Gila wah. And she said, I quote, (to lure me to want to climb the ladder) "Siuk jua tu extreme bah adventure. Lifetime experience"
INDEEEE.. -________-' I swear the veins on my head are still visibly pulsing.
So tadi I potong my graduation kain. Sadly I got yang lunturkan and since it's non-exchangable, pakai saja tia. Ok pulang banarnya I don't mind it pasal inda nampak banar tapi the tailor lah majal cakap sayang yatah aku sasak -__-'. Pemajal hantap. Rasakan ku sauk wah pikir saja. -__-'
So my cousin ada problem with the boyfriend.. I actually find it fascinating. Macam, ok seriously wah I've never been in those kinds of stuff or problems yatah I should go all sasak but somehow.. Inda. I don't sasak the guy kah apa.. I don't think her decisions and actions are stupid crap. She asks me stuff but I tell her bluntly I don't know. I tell her what I think pulang, what I think she should do crap but I kept reminding her lah I've never in one so don't trust me that much. I listened to her lah apa. Some of those times, I divert the talk to something else. They may think I'm being selfish kan cakap pasal diriku but it's just that I feel uncomfortable liat durang pikirkan the problem and marung marung.. And she doesn't talk about it much so bahapa juaku kan pajal? You know. If she tells then ok I listen but when she doesn't want to talk then I'll stop, then I just dance making them laugh.
So the problem ada affect kah inda arah saya? Yes ada. It just made me not want a relationship. Takutku. I mean, I want a guy who loves me; with that love he'd only see me, trust me and wouldn't want to hurt me. He accepts me the way I am, my good sides and bad sides, and he wouldn't care about the bad side jua in the end pasal what matters is that it's me, nada orang lain. So it gets me thinking.. Why do you go curang?
I guess it's because you're not happy with them? Or maybe andang gatal? Or the love is just gone? If it's gone then why can't you cut it off before you go and look for another? Is it because you're scared? Of what? Breaking their hearts? But bukankah if they found out kamu curang, that would hurt them far more then putus pasal the love is gone? And finding out kamu curang is more bastard than anything. You know.
I'm not sure what I will be in the future but for now, what I do know is that when I love someone I only love that one person. No one else tu. I may sound gatal shit suka macam macam laki laki but no one else tu.. In my heart that person saja. So they get all the benefits.. I mean I'd love them sampai sampai I'd be really setia no one else crap, I'll try to make them happy, I'll think about them all the time, miss them 24/7 and semua lah ah. Finally when they want it to be over, I'd love them so much that I'd let them go and see them be happy.
So when I get in a relationship atu wah, ngam tia yang jenis curang yang I'd love; they don't even love me at all, girls keliling pinggang and I'm sure I'll be a fool tu love ia saja tu.. And when he goes around cutting it off he wouldn't feel guilty pasal I'd say inda apa tu pasal I want them to be happy (and I'm sincere about it). So sakit jua aku tu. =( Menakutkan.
HAHA.
Anyways, today is my 'Stress By My Mother' Day. She really pushed my buttons today. Macam, she ordered me around for example cari her room keys cause she lost it. -__-' Lapas atu sikit sikit marah and say I shouldn't act like so and so since I'm nearly 20. -__-' Sasakku. Then paling extreme was she asked me to climb the fireman's ladder to get into her room pasal ia malu if the firemen masuk ke biliknya. -__-' Bangganglah aku..I mean, don't I have huge brothers who people practically think are older, who could climb better? Gila wah. And she said, I quote, (to lure me to want to climb the ladder) "Siuk jua tu extreme bah adventure. Lifetime experience"
INDEEEE.. -________-' I swear the veins on my head are still visibly pulsing.
So tadi I potong my graduation kain. Sadly I got yang lunturkan and since it's non-exchangable, pakai saja tia. Ok pulang banarnya I don't mind it pasal inda nampak banar tapi the tailor lah majal cakap sayang yatah aku sasak -__-'. Pemajal hantap. Rasakan ku sauk wah pikir saja. -__-'
So my cousin ada problem with the boyfriend.. I actually find it fascinating. Macam, ok seriously wah I've never been in those kinds of stuff or problems yatah I should go all sasak but somehow.. Inda. I don't sasak the guy kah apa.. I don't think her decisions and actions are stupid crap. She asks me stuff but I tell her bluntly I don't know. I tell her what I think pulang, what I think she should do crap but I kept reminding her lah I've never in one so don't trust me that much. I listened to her lah apa. Some of those times, I divert the talk to something else. They may think I'm being selfish kan cakap pasal diriku but it's just that I feel uncomfortable liat durang pikirkan the problem and marung marung.. And she doesn't talk about it much so bahapa juaku kan pajal? You know. If she tells then ok I listen but when she doesn't want to talk then I'll stop, then I just dance making them laugh.
So the problem ada affect kah inda arah saya? Yes ada. It just made me not want a relationship. Takutku. I mean, I want a guy who loves me; with that love he'd only see me, trust me and wouldn't want to hurt me. He accepts me the way I am, my good sides and bad sides, and he wouldn't care about the bad side jua in the end pasal what matters is that it's me, nada orang lain. So it gets me thinking.. Why do you go curang?
I guess it's because you're not happy with them? Or maybe andang gatal? Or the love is just gone? If it's gone then why can't you cut it off before you go and look for another? Is it because you're scared? Of what? Breaking their hearts? But bukankah if they found out kamu curang, that would hurt them far more then putus pasal the love is gone? And finding out kamu curang is more bastard than anything. You know.
I'm not sure what I will be in the future but for now, what I do know is that when I love someone I only love that one person. No one else tu. I may sound gatal shit suka macam macam laki laki but no one else tu.. In my heart that person saja. So they get all the benefits.. I mean I'd love them sampai sampai I'd be really setia no one else crap, I'll try to make them happy, I'll think about them all the time, miss them 24/7 and semua lah ah. Finally when they want it to be over, I'd love them so much that I'd let them go and see them be happy.
So when I get in a relationship atu wah, ngam tia yang jenis curang yang I'd love; they don't even love me at all, girls keliling pinggang and I'm sure I'll be a fool tu love ia saja tu.. And when he goes around cutting it off he wouldn't feel guilty pasal I'd say inda apa tu pasal I want them to be happy (and I'm sincere about it). So sakit jua aku tu. =( Menakutkan.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Sunday, January 3, 2010
was written at 1:29 PM
Reasons I'm too scared to ask:
- I might get the answer that I don't want to hear.
- Might get ridiculed for asking it.
- Might not be answered.
Reasons I'm too scared to say hi:
- Might not be answered.
- Might be ignored then forgotten; not acknowledged.
Haha. I just ran out of ideas on what to write, might as well write crap.
Tadi main netball. Siuk hantap ketawa ketawa saja! XD Hehe. I like.. Sakit parut though so inda berapa bemainlah ah.. Kan semua ada tadi datang so fun tak terkata. Serious shit it just confirms it that netball is my stress reliever. Banar tah.
I really want to write it down but I don't know how but pokoknya..
I'm restless. =)
- I might get the answer that I don't want to hear.
- Might get ridiculed for asking it.
- Might not be answered.
Reasons I'm too scared to say hi:
- Might not be answered.
- Might be ignored then forgotten; not acknowledged.
Haha. I just ran out of ideas on what to write, might as well write crap.
Tadi main netball. Siuk hantap ketawa ketawa saja! XD Hehe. I like.. Sakit parut though so inda berapa bemainlah ah.. Kan semua ada tadi datang so fun tak terkata. Serious shit it just confirms it that netball is my stress reliever. Banar tah.
I really want to write it down but I don't know how but pokoknya..
I'm restless. =)
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Friday, January 1, 2010
Careless Whispers was written at 2:33 AM
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY! XD
Any resolutions you may ask? Just 1: To be someone I'm not.
Not that I can explain how but yeah.. Ada tah tu. =)
So bahapa saja saya tadi on the last day of the year? Well, woke up at 10 kana telipun oleh mama suruh mandi kan my brother but luckily ia sudah mandi so I went back to sleep. Hehe. Then bangun akhirnya, makan ayam penyet. Sekali ajar my cousin science yang aku pun banggang cana kan explain arahnya..Sakit wah science ani. Sigh. Sekali hung out with my cousins and cerita cerita.
Oh yeah ikut hantar my nini juga lawat siblingnya and dorang cerita cerita..Sekali it got me thinking: Kami karang tua cerita cerita tah nganya ni, baik tah ku buat things other than cerita cerita sal I'll be having alot of time to cerita when I'm their age Amin saya panjang umur. Wow, another resolution. Hehe. Then malamnya kerumah bungsu kami ia manggil makan makan lah ah. Then after sana, my cousins and I pergi Empire tengok fireworks. Everybody was happy time tengok I guess.. But time aku meliat atu ah, I can't help but feel restless. Entah kah kenapa but yeah. Awesome by the way but yeah that's just it. Restless.
2009 has been a very life changing year for me: Many first time experiences, many adventures, many new people that I've met and many many lah ah. I love it. Happy ku with it and I just hope my 2010 gets better =). I don't care wherever it may take me; it may not follow my plans and dreams but as long as I'm happy with it then I guess that is me living my life.
Hope you guys semua happy, better things to come in this new year and kamu semua bau.. HAHA! XD
Any resolutions you may ask? Just 1: To be someone I'm not.
Not that I can explain how but yeah.. Ada tah tu. =)
So bahapa saja saya tadi on the last day of the year? Well, woke up at 10 kana telipun oleh mama suruh mandi kan my brother but luckily ia sudah mandi so I went back to sleep. Hehe. Then bangun akhirnya, makan ayam penyet. Sekali ajar my cousin science yang aku pun banggang cana kan explain arahnya..Sakit wah science ani. Sigh. Sekali hung out with my cousins and cerita cerita.
Oh yeah ikut hantar my nini juga lawat siblingnya and dorang cerita cerita..Sekali it got me thinking: Kami karang tua cerita cerita tah nganya ni, baik tah ku buat things other than cerita cerita sal I'll be having alot of time to cerita when I'm their age Amin saya panjang umur. Wow, another resolution. Hehe. Then malamnya kerumah bungsu kami ia manggil makan makan lah ah. Then after sana, my cousins and I pergi Empire tengok fireworks. Everybody was happy time tengok I guess.. But time aku meliat atu ah, I can't help but feel restless. Entah kah kenapa but yeah. Awesome by the way but yeah that's just it. Restless.
2009 has been a very life changing year for me: Many first time experiences, many adventures, many new people that I've met and many many lah ah. I love it. Happy ku with it and I just hope my 2010 gets better =). I don't care wherever it may take me; it may not follow my plans and dreams but as long as I'm happy with it then I guess that is me living my life.
Hope you guys semua happy, better things to come in this new year and kamu semua bau.. HAHA! XD
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Monday, December 28, 2009
MI Pantai <3 was written at 7:32 PM
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Sunday, December 27, 2009
was written at 1:32 AM
So sampai lah ni ah di padang ah. Nada bah orang arah futsal field ah. So, tabak saja tia and went in. We crawled through the fence to get in then we played futsal. We just tabak mah no worries but then came the dude in charge cakap 'Ah please ah keluar sorry bini bini inda kana suruh main futsal, titah. Ok ah keluar lalu pintu ah please.' HAHA. Palaw wah tu bung.
Haha apakan saya ah. That happened tadi by the way. Kan main netball nada bula.. So gila gila ka Asmah bali bula netball sekajap sekali main tah kami 1 jam.. I think. Catulah ah. Felt like an hour.
During those time, I can't help but feel exhausted. Malas bah. Lalah. Nada bah mood kan main. Duduk ganya bah ingin diri ah. Need my mojo back eh gila kali. Haha..
After that went to Gadong ni kan lawat Muda bini but then udah ke sana, nada bah ia ah. Boring jua tu. Aku lagi tais liur ayam penyet. So kami di gadong sekejap saja then went to bandar arah tamu selera makan ayam penyet. Gila wah bung. $2.50 and banyak bah the isinya. Sama konsisi macam ayam penyet Rose Cafe tapi arah sana $4. Membari marah. Hahah. I gotta say, NYAMAN. Hahah. My new fave food. Hehe.
I think PMS ku ni right now. HAHA. Au banar. Entah kenapa but yeah. =3
Haha apakan saya ah. That happened tadi by the way. Kan main netball nada bula.. So gila gila ka Asmah bali bula netball sekajap sekali main tah kami 1 jam.. I think. Catulah ah. Felt like an hour.
During those time, I can't help but feel exhausted. Malas bah. Lalah. Nada bah mood kan main. Duduk ganya bah ingin diri ah. Need my mojo back eh gila kali. Haha..
After that went to Gadong ni kan lawat Muda bini but then udah ke sana, nada bah ia ah. Boring jua tu. Aku lagi tais liur ayam penyet. So kami di gadong sekejap saja then went to bandar arah tamu selera makan ayam penyet. Gila wah bung. $2.50 and banyak bah the isinya. Sama konsisi macam ayam penyet Rose Cafe tapi arah sana $4. Membari marah. Hahah. I gotta say, NYAMAN. Hahah. My new fave food. Hehe.
I think PMS ku ni right now. HAHA. Au banar. Entah kenapa but yeah. =3
ULONG HANTAPAku mau holiday lagi. Haha. Escape lagi. Nyaman wah rasanya.
Alright.
Alright.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Friday, December 25, 2009
was written at 12:57 PM
Aku marah. So I menyamal. Haha apakan saya ah. But suck it. I just vent them using my own tactics.. It works actually. What I do? Well I just present them with the stuff they hate sampai durang rasa frustrated and sasak. Serious. It works and it's fun. Rasa tah kamu apaku rasa.. Nah kau..
Oh nah here's some Surabaya pictures. Vainingku ni ah jangan bagai. I just show the ones yang ada sayalah. XD Oh inda ikut susunan by the way.
Shopping di Semarang
Going back to Surabaya
Eating at this Malaysian restaurant Penang's House
Dengan si cousin gila: Salam
Random thing arah Penang's House
On the train going to Semarang. It was a 5hr trip.
The view kami lintasi
Arah kampung my maid
The Desa
Complete set adi bradi. Haha.
Underneath the moon and stars. Haha.
At Tunjungan Plaza.
The Desa
Oh tadi I started my first hour driving lesson. Gila selalunya orang cuba di stadium right? Aku di mana nah? Raun kampungku yo. Sandi jua tu. Haha. Pasal my instructor tinggal nearby but I've never seen him pulang ah. I have to say his methods in teaching is cool. Pemarah pulang tapi cool. Di bawanya ku becerita apa. Haha. Macam, relax lah. I like.
Lenka ah majalku eh. Lawa wah. Alright~ Haha.
Oh amahku balik ah. Gila eh. I respect yang nada amah and anak bini bini seorang saja. I jealous. Hahah. I can't do it. Managed but I can't seem to go to awesome level yet. I want to. I need to. Haha.
Oh nah here's some Surabaya pictures. Vainingku ni ah jangan bagai. I just show the ones yang ada sayalah. XD Oh inda ikut susunan by the way.
Shopping di Semarang
Going back to Surabaya
Eating at this Malaysian restaurant Penang's House
Dengan si cousin gila: Salam
Random thing arah Penang's House
On the train going to Semarang. It was a 5hr trip.
The view kami lintasi
Arah kampung my maid
The Desa
Complete set adi bradi. Haha.
Underneath the moon and stars. Haha.
At Tunjungan Plaza.
The DesaAku bored hantap right now. I want to go to the beach liat sunset nganya malam udah. Then I want to hang but hey.. I do that lain hari lah ah.
Oh tadi I started my first hour driving lesson. Gila selalunya orang cuba di stadium right? Aku di mana nah? Raun kampungku yo. Sandi jua tu. Haha. Pasal my instructor tinggal nearby but I've never seen him pulang ah. I have to say his methods in teaching is cool. Pemarah pulang tapi cool. Di bawanya ku becerita apa. Haha. Macam, relax lah. I like.
Lenka ah majalku eh. Lawa wah. Alright~ Haha.
Oh amahku balik ah. Gila eh. I respect yang nada amah and anak bini bini seorang saja. I jealous. Hahah. I can't do it. Managed but I can't seem to go to awesome level yet. I want to. I need to. Haha.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Skip along XD was written at 8:25 PM
Bored. I'm home alone right now, the family pergi makan. I malas nak ikut. So I stayed. Clean the house yangg bawah part. Kan ke atas inda berani. Haha. Aku bangga ni ah jangan bagai that I'm cleaning. =P
So apa saja yang ada?
- Surabaya.
- Daniel's Birthday.
So I pergi Surabaya, 6 days dude. Siuk shopping nganyaku. Pokoknya lah ah pikir saja. Oleh oleh you ask? Sorry nada. HAHA. I buy for myself yes. =P Apa yang awesome apanah? McD durang bah. I bought meals McD for 6 people kan, arganya convert ke B$ berapa nah? $25 man. Banar! Macam, Damn! XD
Ate alot di sana. Pikir saja. Surabaya we just went to this 1 shopping complexkan, yatah awesomelah. Even 6 days sana ah alum abis bah di rauni. That's how big it is. But masa 2nd day kami ke Semarangkan arah my maid's village. Cool hantap ah gila kali! They shit arah longkang! betinggir bah arah tangga then they shove their asses arah the longkang. Cali wah aku liat! Paluilah. Hahah. Apakan aku ah. But yeah the village cool.
Kemarin my brother's birthday. Gila lalahku melayan karenah keluargaku. Entah eh no comment. Kalau ada keluargaku membaca and kan terasa manasaja tah. I don't care. My life. I know nanti when I fall I shall go to you all but kalau buleh lah ah.. You just got to know that the first person I go to is myself. That's all.
I'm kinda feel I'm in between stuff. Banggang ku right now I don't know what to think. But yeah, esuk ok saya ni eh. Relax saja. Bawa dengar lagu Lenka. Oh yeah I bought the album. Lawa ah palui eh. Macam, semua lagu nyaman di dangar. I don't come around and click next when I'm listening to it. Hahah. 3 kali wah udah aku dangar albumnya ah. Cool.
Sigh, bored hantap so I'm gonna skip along. Quite happily baby. Haha..Apakan saya ah. Antam. Aight I'm off. Pictures nanti ye.
So apa saja yang ada?
- Surabaya.
- Daniel's Birthday.
So I pergi Surabaya, 6 days dude. Siuk shopping nganyaku. Pokoknya lah ah pikir saja. Oleh oleh you ask? Sorry nada. HAHA. I buy for myself yes. =P Apa yang awesome apanah? McD durang bah. I bought meals McD for 6 people kan, arganya convert ke B$ berapa nah? $25 man. Banar! Macam, Damn! XD
Ate alot di sana. Pikir saja. Surabaya we just went to this 1 shopping complexkan, yatah awesomelah. Even 6 days sana ah alum abis bah di rauni. That's how big it is. But masa 2nd day kami ke Semarangkan arah my maid's village. Cool hantap ah gila kali! They shit arah longkang! betinggir bah arah tangga then they shove their asses arah the longkang. Cali wah aku liat! Paluilah. Hahah. Apakan aku ah. But yeah the village cool.
Kemarin my brother's birthday. Gila lalahku melayan karenah keluargaku. Entah eh no comment. Kalau ada keluargaku membaca and kan terasa manasaja tah. I don't care. My life. I know nanti when I fall I shall go to you all but kalau buleh lah ah.. You just got to know that the first person I go to is myself. That's all.
I'm kinda feel I'm in between stuff. Banggang ku right now I don't know what to think. But yeah, esuk ok saya ni eh. Relax saja. Bawa dengar lagu Lenka. Oh yeah I bought the album. Lawa ah palui eh. Macam, semua lagu nyaman di dangar. I don't come around and click next when I'm listening to it. Hahah. 3 kali wah udah aku dangar albumnya ah. Cool.
Sigh, bored hantap so I'm gonna skip along. Quite happily baby. Haha..Apakan saya ah. Antam. Aight I'm off. Pictures nanti ye.
You got me XOXO,
Wedah
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Tentang Seseorang was written at 4:42 AM
"Adang tah kesian kan durang, kesiankan tah dirimu."
-__-' Alright no comment.
-__-' Alright no comment.
Holidays so far: fun. I'm not complaining at all. Jalan jalan, ke sekulah, menalur and well, abis lah. Highlight ever would be time menyambut my parent's wedding anniversary. Meriah hantap it felt like their marriage ceremony all over again. With bands and all. Hahah. Malam malam I've been going to sleep at 5 saja. Even now. Erm, did netball once, then kan netball lagi damam tiaku.. But now ok lah. Damam biasa saja. Bukan yang sandi sampai ampai ampai atu lah ah. Made macaroni a night; the recepi is so simple buleh tutup mata saja buat. Banar. I'm not even bragging.
I'll be gone from the 15th untill 20th. Kemana? Cari tia arah previous posts. Ada tu I mentioned where.
I have alot of things I need to get out of my chest so izinkan lah saya ye..
1. Don't treat me like I'm your boyfriend. Don't think just because I'm with you all the time so it's obliged that I'll be with you forever 'till death do us part; literally. I don't go around and stick to you crap. You go around without telling me what you did a day pun I don't care wah.. Kau kan nyamal, nyamal tah. Kau pikir macam for example kau jalan jalan and you don't tell me aku inda taukah? I do know. I just don't say it out loud cause I DON'T FUCKIN' CARE. It's not because you think I'm stupid so I don't know about it. Salah tu kau atu.. I may look oblivious about it BUT I KNOW. Nganya I'm freakin' smart enough to not mention it, baik enough and just too, inda ingau what people do. I don't stick to people. And just because kau nyamal, aku aga kau and say jangan nyamal makes it aku takut kau inda mau kawan sama aku lagi? Salah tu lagi kau ah. Aku kesian kan kau ada pulang. Bukannya apa. Buleh eh ku biarkan nganya I'm not that kind of person. I still have a heart. So pleaselah. Sadar tah, jangan tah kan nyamal nyamal ani. It's just childish. Yes, you get what you want from doing that nganya, ish it hurts people bah tu. Kadang kadang they feel guilty when they shouldn't.. And that burden shouldn't be thrust upon them. Sakit tu.
2. Kau awang ah. Buleh kau just, belajar becakap bisai bisai kah? Macam, fine kau atu jenis frank tapi pleaselah. Belajar tah eh baik baik becakap. Karang ah kami cakap cematu as in sama macam kau cakap arahku, kau yang karang pissed off and melawan. Sasak. Cubatah lay it down slowly. I'm not in cloud 9 dreamland bah. I know my grounds. And besides ah, YOU ASKED ME. YOU SAID TO TELL YOU ABOUT IT. And when I did you go around and say harsh things to me lightly. Awang tah banar. If you care me so much then you should say it the way you care a person. Girlfriend mu ah. Ada kau kasar kasar cakap cematukah arahnya? Paham pahamlah. Fine ia yang kau suka tapinya wah. Jangan kasar bah eh. Cakap care, entah kau. Nasib I didn't tell you evertyhing.
Bah that's it. Too tired to go on. Morning. =)
You got me XOXO,
Wedah